who will YOU miss this Christmas?

we all realise that sooner or later the Christmas table will eventually become empty. 

I consider myself lucky that I have had my share of years of joy but this Christmas seems to be more darker, shaded by serious stuff. NOT FUN. my prediction for our Christmas lunch this year would be everything from the late arrival of the turkey, bipolar disease, also ka-ching-less.

A toast to absent friends: Not everyone can be with their loved ones this Christmas

my eldest sister is miles away from home.and i actually missed her.a lot. i always prided myself that we were-are-all still a family despite our family rifts about 4 years ago. i am sure everyone in my family suffered the agony of missing our family being close and all. like the old days. 

i know Christmas is for children. but i still want my fair share of white Christmas baby jesus! 

I have no boyfriend to be home alone with in the first place, so I am in the top position to feel sorry for myself, though the pangs kicked in for several days after the announcement. 

Nothing stays the same, I convinced myself, life moves on. Christmas, too, is a moveable feast. The turkey is ordered and the stockings are filling.decently. i hope.

i should stop internetting before my bipolar streaks kicking in. i can rattle and whine until New Year. HAPPY CHRISTMAS AND BLESSED NEW YEAR. 2012.lets have a smooch.

oh well.

i answered few quizzes i found on the web and the result was not making me happy. at the end of the quizzes, i got results as stated below. ermm. not happy. hope its faulty.

• You’ve experienced repeated episodes of major depression.
• You had your first episode of major depression before age 25.
• You have a first-degree relative with bipolar disorder.
• When you’re not depressed, your mood and energy levels are higher than most people’s.
• When you’re depressed, you oversleep and overeat.
• Your episodes of major depression are short (less than 3 months).
• You’ve lost contact with reality while depressed.
• You’ve had postpartum depression before.
• You’ve developed mania or hypomania while taking an antidepressant.
• Your antidepressant stopped working after several months. 
• You’ve tried 3 or more antidepressants without success.

Source: PsychEducation.org




i dont know whats wrong with me. i hate my parents for no reason. ill get easily agitated over the smallest things and irritated over my own self and sometimes nothing. i can be overly happy and talkative at times and sometimes ill lock myself in my bedroom and bawl my eyes like crazy. i do not know what is wrong with me. i do want to help myself to communicate and bond better but the problem is i do not know what is wrong with me.i thought i was suffering from major PMS so i ensured self to take multivitamin and vitamin b-complex daily, but it seems to get worse.i tried my best to lift my moods but to no avail. what should i do? oh well, eat more Nutella i guess.