“Before you embark on a journey of revenge, dig two graves.”
thats the adage of the late,late,late philosopher to us. well, it has everything to do with my day today. i am not perfect. i hold grudges to others over silly and small things.
However, DO NOT underestimate the power of silliness and trivial, mundane stuff. a small birthday card thatll cost you for only 50 cents might allow you to reflect your actions and thoughts.
I was strolling to buy a magazine in a kiosk when i saw that particular magical,tiny,small,inviting card that move me to the core.that small card is just a simple card with a fuzzy bear in front which bore the word ‘happy’ (im expecting “happy birthday!”, but..what do you expect from a 50 cents card!) and i bought it.
i actually want to give that card to a friend who's currently having a hard time while having her birthday. our relationship were severely battered due to several disagreements and misunderstandings. but to my (and your ) amazement, at that time God must've rung a bell that reminds me that i do not hold any power in creating my own yardstick of right and wrong (im no God afterall) by judging other people and i should not behave in a childish manner. it suddenly struck me that i want to change for the better. i dont care whatever the outcome might turns out to be, but as long as ive commited myself in trying my best to repair and to salvage what has been done, there is nothing i could do. its ineffable that these words came out from my hideous tiny brain, but i think enough is enough. i am not Dalai Lama, i dont have the benevolence in forgiving, and sure i dont have Mother Theresa's act of contrition or generosity, but, heck, im going to give it a go.
“Everything has its beauty but not everyone sees it”. yes, no matter how ugly is the way she’d treated me before, i should dig my memory to find out that there is always something good out of the bad. whether its should not my new year resolution? to be a peace activist@aficionados by now.
